Welcome 2011!!!!! Its the 1st day of a new year........and so, I have decided to pen some thoughts on what the resolutions should be this year.......
So, resolutions so far-
1) Spend more time with God and His word - have kinda neglected this aspect of my life for a while now......mainly coz of work and early starts....mainly because I was so zonked out with the thyroid thingy....so yes, will definitely need to dig deep and drink freely from the fountain of life this year!!!!
2) Spend more time with my family- my parents, my brother, my sister and her family....my grandparents.......always so little time.....always....but that is never a good excuse!
3) Work/ Study - time to buckle up and start 'studying' for my haematology training.....but first of all, I need to fill up my log book and ace the interview!!! Have been procrastinating for the loooongest time!!!!
4) Health - being diagnosed with Grave's Disease has been tough...I hate taking pills....and I always forget!!! yes, I know, I know.....I am the world's worst patient!!!! But I will try.....and take care of myself more this year - which means health eating, good sleep hygiened, REGULAR EXERCISE ( I know, I know!).......
5) Friendships/ Relationships - looking forward to forging new friendships, strengthening the pre-existing ones....mebbe mend old friendship gone sour......mebbe.....and then of course the all consuming and perennial question of my 'love life'.......I think this single status has always bugged me.....more than I care to admit....but I also know how scared I am to be in any relationship....so for this year, I am going to hand the reins to God, sit back and enjoy the ride...and have decided to love the best I can , whoever God provides and sets in my path.......of course, that does not mean throwing my caution into the wind....its just means being open to people and not being overly judgmental at the 1st impression.....
6) Finance - have to definitely learn to be a good steward of my finances this year.....been spending wayyy too much money.....so will need to learn more constraints this year and to tighten the belt a little........also have pledged to contribute a sum to YX's education here....so hopefully I will be able to repay what my parents have given me!
7) Missions - definitely will have to get on another medical missions trip this year...so Lord, I pray for oppportunities and grace to get my leave approved......in Your time, and in Your will!!!!
Guess 7 resolutions is a good and perfect start for a new year.......
Here's wishing everyone a good and happy new 2011!!!! God bless!!!!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy New Year! Welcome 2011!!!
Wow! What a year it has been! All the ups and downs!! Bittersweet moments - was just reflecting on this word 'bittersweet'.....wondered why it was bitter , and then sweet rather than sweet and then bitter???? Why not call it sweetbitter? Why call it bittersweet???
Guess it was not just a play of words, it was in fact, a very apt description of life - at least for me, this word sums up the whole entire 2010!
Bitter in many areas of my life.....but tinged with the sweetness in the most improbable places at the most ridiculous times! But sweet nevertheless..... would have countless stories to tell, but it would have been recorded along the way on this blog......you could just flip the whole entire collection and come to the same conjecture as me!!!!
Since 2010 has passed, and my resolution for 2010 was for overflowing joy.....I guess in a way it was fulfilled.......not without hard work...not without brokenness....not without God! Joy can only come when you truly allow Him to work in your life.....and I am glad that I did.....mebbe not total submission, but submission and obedience nevertheless.....with pockets of rebellion here and there! ;P
Work has gone pretty smooth sailing...nothing major this year...except 1 or 2 incidents.....studies/ exams has been a major struggle this year, but I made it with God's help and mercy! ...friendships went through a pretty rough patch...but most remained intact, except for that 1 infamous one of course!!!! ....financially - tight this year, but I made it somehow by God's grace.....family - managed to spend more time with my brother this year ( unfortunately this did not extend to the rest of the extended family/ nuclear family)......a home I can call my own - the greatest privelege to date.........church - still the same, CG-less....but now a new member of AH CF!!!....relationships - still stuck in 1st gear ( shucks, don't think I ever made it to 2nd gear!!!!).....
So yeah - 2010 in a nutshell!!!
So what's in store for 2011????
Am not sure....have been too tired these days to think/ pray about it....I blame it on the thyroid problem ...and those darn anti-thyroid pills I have to take....just messes up with the energy levels ( as one friends aptly puts it)........but I know what I want/ need for 2011 - more love, more power , more of You, O Lord in my life! More grace and more mercy....both for myself and also to others around me......more patience with people - be they my juniors/ seniors/ patients/ relatives/ etc etc......more energy and more drive at work - to excel in all that I do/ work at, for the glory of God.....and last but not least, a good church and a great cell group......PLUS of course- an EQUALLY YOKED relationship....... ;)
So here's wishing everyone a very blessed and meaningful 2011!!!! God Bless!!!
Guess it was not just a play of words, it was in fact, a very apt description of life - at least for me, this word sums up the whole entire 2010!
Bitter in many areas of my life.....but tinged with the sweetness in the most improbable places at the most ridiculous times! But sweet nevertheless..... would have countless stories to tell, but it would have been recorded along the way on this blog......you could just flip the whole entire collection and come to the same conjecture as me!!!!
Since 2010 has passed, and my resolution for 2010 was for overflowing joy.....I guess in a way it was fulfilled.......not without hard work...not without brokenness....not without God! Joy can only come when you truly allow Him to work in your life.....and I am glad that I did.....mebbe not total submission, but submission and obedience nevertheless.....with pockets of rebellion here and there! ;P
Work has gone pretty smooth sailing...nothing major this year...except 1 or 2 incidents.....studies/ exams has been a major struggle this year, but I made it with God's help and mercy! ...friendships went through a pretty rough patch...but most remained intact, except for that 1 infamous one of course!!!! ....financially - tight this year, but I made it somehow by God's grace.....family - managed to spend more time with my brother this year ( unfortunately this did not extend to the rest of the extended family/ nuclear family)......a home I can call my own - the greatest privelege to date.........church - still the same, CG-less....but now a new member of AH CF!!!....relationships - still stuck in 1st gear ( shucks, don't think I ever made it to 2nd gear!!!!).....
So yeah - 2010 in a nutshell!!!
So what's in store for 2011????
Am not sure....have been too tired these days to think/ pray about it....I blame it on the thyroid problem ...and those darn anti-thyroid pills I have to take....just messes up with the energy levels ( as one friends aptly puts it)........but I know what I want/ need for 2011 - more love, more power , more of You, O Lord in my life! More grace and more mercy....both for myself and also to others around me......more patience with people - be they my juniors/ seniors/ patients/ relatives/ etc etc......more energy and more drive at work - to excel in all that I do/ work at, for the glory of God.....and last but not least, a good church and a great cell group......PLUS of course- an EQUALLY YOKED relationship....... ;)
So here's wishing everyone a very blessed and meaningful 2011!!!! God Bless!!!
Monday, December 20, 2010
Christmas madness!!!
Whew! One down - 3 more to go!!! social events, I mean......
Just organised a steamboat party at my place on the 19th of Dec.....was truly a mad mad rush...finished my night float on Saturday morning...started shopping for ingredients.....woke up at 0700 hours on Sunday to get fresh seafood from West Coast Market...then it was zipping here and there to find a steamboat pot and collect my Christmas log cake from TCC @ Anchorpoint!!!!
Then, had to dash back home to start cooking the stock for the steamboat and cut, wash and prepare all the ingredients........
Finally, all that was left to do was to wait for the guests to come....I was a bit disappointed though....some people either didn't get back to me or promised to come and then just 'fong fei gei' at the last minute....and even those who came, were pretty lukewarm in their response and was just happy to stone in front of my TV watching ' Yes Man'!!!! Talk about being antisocial.....
The worst part - they came, they ate, they left......no one even bothered to offer to help clean up after everything!!! I was indignant to say the least! Hmmph!!! This will be the first and last time I invited anyone to my place for dinner......people from work I mean.......ungrateful bunch of people who always take me for granted!!!!
And then the whole night I was thinking about Mr X who didn't come....was a bit disappointed initially but then realised it was because he wanted to spend time with his sisters who came from overseas...valid reason I guess...then started dreaming about all sorts of weird and impossible stuff....
I still can't quite get my head, or rather my heart around the fact that he is a self- professed atheist....I just can't....but I guess it's not hard to imagine since my own dad is one himself!!!! It was just difficult to accept......and then today I had a little jostle of words with this atheist - I guess he was just upset with Christians at work who made a huge fuss about being on call on Christmas....and was saying that our religion does not call us to not work on festive seasons....and I agreed with him....its not a big deal to work on Christmas....our faith does not depend on celebrating these festivities anyway....but I am sure some Christians will stare at me like I am crazy!!! hahaha....plus he did mention that surely no religion will state that we should not heal on a festival day....which I also agree!!! He should read the Bible and realise how radical Jesus was as a religious person!!! ;)
Anyway, whether Mr X acknowledges it or now....he does hold many values as those that Jesus exhorts us to do....so mebbe, just mebbe, he isn't that far off from embracing the truth and the light!!!
Just organised a steamboat party at my place on the 19th of Dec.....was truly a mad mad rush...finished my night float on Saturday morning...started shopping for ingredients.....woke up at 0700 hours on Sunday to get fresh seafood from West Coast Market...then it was zipping here and there to find a steamboat pot and collect my Christmas log cake from TCC @ Anchorpoint!!!!
Then, had to dash back home to start cooking the stock for the steamboat and cut, wash and prepare all the ingredients........
Finally, all that was left to do was to wait for the guests to come....I was a bit disappointed though....some people either didn't get back to me or promised to come and then just 'fong fei gei' at the last minute....and even those who came, were pretty lukewarm in their response and was just happy to stone in front of my TV watching ' Yes Man'!!!! Talk about being antisocial.....
The worst part - they came, they ate, they left......no one even bothered to offer to help clean up after everything!!! I was indignant to say the least! Hmmph!!! This will be the first and last time I invited anyone to my place for dinner......people from work I mean.......ungrateful bunch of people who always take me for granted!!!!
And then the whole night I was thinking about Mr X who didn't come....was a bit disappointed initially but then realised it was because he wanted to spend time with his sisters who came from overseas...valid reason I guess...then started dreaming about all sorts of weird and impossible stuff....
I still can't quite get my head, or rather my heart around the fact that he is a self- professed atheist....I just can't....but I guess it's not hard to imagine since my own dad is one himself!!!! It was just difficult to accept......and then today I had a little jostle of words with this atheist - I guess he was just upset with Christians at work who made a huge fuss about being on call on Christmas....and was saying that our religion does not call us to not work on festive seasons....and I agreed with him....its not a big deal to work on Christmas....our faith does not depend on celebrating these festivities anyway....but I am sure some Christians will stare at me like I am crazy!!! hahaha....plus he did mention that surely no religion will state that we should not heal on a festival day....which I also agree!!! He should read the Bible and realise how radical Jesus was as a religious person!!! ;)
Anyway, whether Mr X acknowledges it or now....he does hold many values as those that Jesus exhorts us to do....so mebbe, just mebbe, he isn't that far off from embracing the truth and the light!!!
Friday, December 10, 2010
Shocked and disappointed......
He said, ' Aiyah! Why you so religious wan?!? No need to be so religious wan! I'm an atheist! '
Me: ' Huh?!? We are just going for dinner and a lil acapella concert after that! How is that 'religious'???? We just like to hang out with each other....'
That was the conversation I had with Mr X today. He was a guy that I had coffees with the entire of last month .....and also that late dinner one friday night...which lasted into the wee hours of the morning!!!!
I fancied him - to say the least. And 2 of my close buddies have kinda approved after seeing his picture on FB. But.....these friends aren't Christian....so I always take their advice/ approval with a pince of salt....I dun really expect them to understand the whole 'unequally yoked' business anyway.....Help me!
But today's confrontation was a bit of a shock....unexpected and disappointing....I had expected him to respect my religion...to support me....but instead of that, he ridiculed it....and exalted his position of being atheist......Why?!?
I really wanted to say to him :
- You don't know what you are missing in life
- You just don't get it do you?
- What's the point of wanting to do volunteer work with Unicef/ MSF/ etc if whatever that you do doesn't have a lasting impact after you leave???
Just because I don't share his atheist view...just because I did not want to spend time with his friends....just because of all these small lil' things, he ridiculed my faith......I was angry....fuming mad actually......but what can I do???
I can only pray that he will open his heart to Jesus...that the Holy Spirit will do a work in his life that no human being can....that the Holy Spirit will open his spiritual eyes to see his own humane-ness, lostness and blindness.....and that someday, he will accept Jesus as his own personal Lord and saviour.......
Until then, I have decided to stay away from him for a while.....to take a breather and re-evaluate my life and re-examine my heart....to understand why the Bible says -Do not be unequally yoked! .... and to ask the Holy Spirit to guard my heart and mind always......
Lord, I need You to give me the strength to walk away...the faith to trust You for the best life partner that you have prepared for me....and the peace that this will come to pass in Your time, not mine.....
Me: ' Huh?!? We are just going for dinner and a lil acapella concert after that! How is that 'religious'???? We just like to hang out with each other....'
That was the conversation I had with Mr X today. He was a guy that I had coffees with the entire of last month .....and also that late dinner one friday night...which lasted into the wee hours of the morning!!!!
I fancied him - to say the least. And 2 of my close buddies have kinda approved after seeing his picture on FB. But.....these friends aren't Christian....so I always take their advice/ approval with a pince of salt....I dun really expect them to understand the whole 'unequally yoked' business anyway.....Help me!
But today's confrontation was a bit of a shock....unexpected and disappointing....I had expected him to respect my religion...to support me....but instead of that, he ridiculed it....and exalted his position of being atheist......Why?!?
I really wanted to say to him :
- You don't know what you are missing in life
- You just don't get it do you?
- What's the point of wanting to do volunteer work with Unicef/ MSF/ etc if whatever that you do doesn't have a lasting impact after you leave???
Just because I don't share his atheist view...just because I did not want to spend time with his friends....just because of all these small lil' things, he ridiculed my faith......I was angry....fuming mad actually......but what can I do???
I can only pray that he will open his heart to Jesus...that the Holy Spirit will do a work in his life that no human being can....that the Holy Spirit will open his spiritual eyes to see his own humane-ness, lostness and blindness.....and that someday, he will accept Jesus as his own personal Lord and saviour.......
Until then, I have decided to stay away from him for a while.....to take a breather and re-evaluate my life and re-examine my heart....to understand why the Bible says -Do not be unequally yoked! .... and to ask the Holy Spirit to guard my heart and mind always......
Lord, I need You to give me the strength to walk away...the faith to trust You for the best life partner that you have prepared for me....and the peace that this will come to pass in Your time, not mine.....
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